In the Bible, in Hebrews 11:1 we read, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. This verse of scripture is my favorite because of its application in my life.
As early as seven years ago, I was living a life filled with utter chaos. If someone were to ask me about faith, I would have replied that the only faith that I had, was found in the chemical substances that I had become addicted to.
I am grateful, and give thanks to my Heavenly Father daily, that on 25 October 2007, my eyes became open, and I began to travel down an entirely different path on my life’s journey. I can honestly testify that my faith has grown stronger as I have remained clean and sober from all the drugs and alcohol that once plagued my life.
Albeit, that is not to say that my faith has not been tested. I believe that coping with the diagnosis of having Dissociative Identity Disorder (D.I.D.), a mental illness that I have had all of my life, is a test of my faith. The difference in my life today is that instead of turning to chemical substances for oblique answers to the trials that I face, I have learned to put my faith and trust in the Lord. Although I may not fully understand why I must suffer this illness, I can see the hand of God at work in my life, and I believe that He is using all things in my life for good – not only to bless me personally, but as a testimony to others who may suffer with the same or similar mental illnesses. The key, I have found, is to not lose hope and to stay true to the faith. The words of the prophet Moroni in the Book of Mormon as recorded in Ether 12:6 are a reminder that “ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith.”
I presently have 70 plus alters that I must deal with daily. Life for me in general gets really loud and noisy, and most of the time, it seems as if there is no real peace or comfort. However, I have the hope and assurance that the peace that I am seeking will come as I continue on my journey through life, walking by faith and putting my total trust and faith in the Lord.
Karlyn Kay Stebbins
September 18, 2014
Founder of The Conqueror Foundation
Karlyn Kay Stebbins’ Biography:
Karlyn Kay Stebbins is a guest writer for Morsels Of Bread. She is an addictions counselor and works in a drug rehabilitation center. She has a double major in Sociology and Psychology, and a minor in Communications. She is a convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, having been baptized on 26 March 2011. Her hobbies are reading and writing. She also enjoys spending time with her son and his friends. She is also the Founder of The Conqueror Foundation and has a blog called “Reflection Pays” where she shares her insights.